Tuesday, September 17, 2013

A moment I would relive--

Day 11 of Blogtember is simply a memory you'd love to relive.

I'd love to relive this memory for the simple reason that we all had a blast. Its not often all my siblings get together for an actual night out full of yummy adult drinks, great music and dancing. This was also my first time out for a drink after having Levi, so 10 months with no alcohol and I was very ready to relax.

This just inspired me to go ahead and plan a night out with all my siblings and their significant others. I guess its a good thing Josh has a Birthday coming up! Siblings are the only friends you need.

Missed my little sister this night though. Maybe next time! :)

Monday, September 16, 2013

Monday, September 16: Write a public love letter to someone in your life. (It doesn't necessarily need to be romantic.)

I'm a little late on this train, but am jumping on today!

A Public Love Letter...

     Dear Little Man,
I have learned so much in these almost 2 years from you than I have in my almost 25 years of living. 

You taught me what real love is, how to love selflessly, and what it feels like to have my heart feel incredibly full that when you smile at me and say "mama" it may just burst! 

I remember meeting you for the first time and feeling so complete, whole and fulfilled. Who knew I could love someone as much as I loved Daddy at that moment? The love I had for you when I met you on October 8, 2011 was instant, gratifying and I knew my life was changed forever.

You taught me how to be a Mom. A role I always, always knew I would love to have. I've learned how to change a diaper, how to soothe a crying, teething baby, which as a first time mom can be very terrifying! 

I learned that you love to fall asleep with your cheek on mine, and for a while when you were younger that was the only way you would sleep. This made my heart feel like it was going to burst again. The fact that I was the one to sweep you off into your dreams every night was truly a blessing.

I learned that Daddy is truly the only one who can make you laugh the hardest. He can get a giggle out of you that I never could. There is nothing better in this world than watching my Husband and my baby being so happy and connected.

You have taught me patience. You were born with a temperament that is very much your Mommy and Daddy. You are so chill and calm. You have done everything on your own time, and I have gone through your life worrying for a bit, then you always show up, always put my worries at ease. You've taught me to just embrace your chill attitude and maybe be calmer myself, and just live.

You are the light in my life, truly. You can turn any bad day into a good one. You bring perspective to me when I need it most. You know when Mommy wants cuddles and when Mommy just needs a quiet moment. That is why I know you are such a gift to me. You get me, you get Daddy and you are such a joy to be around. 

From your little toes to your squeezable cheeks, I know you like kisses and tickles all over. And I promise to do this every chance I get.

You have taught me that simple moments are the best ones. The ones that my camera misses, the ones that it is just you and I. Moments where you run up to me with a book and demand to sit in my lap while you secretly pinch my arm, then laugh are the best memories. They are small, little moments, but they make up us. 

You teach me to really enjoy a song. The way you drop everything to get up and dance is inspiring. You don't let a good song get by without breaking it down.

You have showed me over this past year that love can grow. You've proven to me that when I think I've loved to my greatest there is always more my heart can grow.

This is my public letter to you my dear Levi.
And as your laughing and making faces at yourself in the stove, I am typing my feelings out to you. Because months will go by before I update your baby book, or think about writing you another letter.

You are my heart, my happiness and my world.
I promise to be the best Mommy to you.
I promise to never let you down.
I promise to always encourage you to smell the flowers, read a good book, watch the sunset, and pray all the time.
And I promise that Daddy and I will be the best examples we can for you.
Love, Mommy


Sunday, September 15, 2013

The Sunday Currently

Linking up today.


READING Nothing at the moment. Lots of stuff for school and about some Major Programs. I need to find a good book soon. Its been way too long, since I've had my hands on a good read.
WRITING This post obviously. :) But In general I have been journaling a lot more lately. I used to write every day and then the life of being a Momma, wife and full time student kind of gets in the way. Journaling is a way to have me time, and also helps me take the incredibly jumbled, over-dramatic thoughts in my head and hash them out on paper. I always feel less stressed afterwards.  
LISTENING to Needtobreathe Radio on Pandora. 
THINKING about my life a lot. I am excited to see where my photography will take me in the upcoming months, and even if it doesn't I still love it. I'm also thinking about getting school finished, and seeing Josh move forward in his career. I am also thinking about Levi and realizing he will be 2 in a few weeks, my time really does fly.
SMELLING My hazelnut coffee and fresh air from the open windows. This is my favorite time of year, when Summer is leaving and Fall is approaching. What would make it even better right now is if someone had their fireplace burning. Best.Smell.Ever.
WISHING Josh could get home sooner today, but he won't be home until late tonight. Its amazing how a few days apart makes you really miss your Husband. Kind of forgot what that felt like for a minute. ;)
HOPING I can live my life without being so concerned about what other people think. 
WEARING Comfy sweatpants and Josh's t-shirt. Its one of those comfy days where you wake up and wear PJ's all day. 
LOVING The support I am receiving about my photography lately. I am by no means where I want to be, but It is amazing receiving feedback from people. I love that I love it, and that's all that matters. I love the challenge of learning more and taking better photos each time. I love that I can only improve rather than get worse. And I also love that my Husband tells me I should quit school and pursue it entirely, because it shows he really cares about what I want and is really encouraging. (But, I would never quit school-ya know me, always gotta have a back-up plan.)
WANTING To get my butt in shape. BEFORE winter gets here, and I will never have the motivation to do it. What happened to the days where I loved to run, loved to be in shape? I need to get that girl back.
NEEDING to let go of control and LIVE my life. Regarding careers, fears,etc. I know it will all work out, because it always does. I need to stop wasting time stressing when I could be using that time to listen to God's plan for me, and make memories with my family. 
FEELING sad that my baby boy is in pain right now. He's getting those last teeth and is snotty, feverish, miserable, and has a really hard time napping or sleeping period. He seems fine and happy until its time to go night-night, which has never been an issue except for when those 15 month molars came in. Hoping he feels better soon..
CLICKING  Lots of boards on Pinterest to get some more ideas for Levi's Birthday Party coming up! 

I am looking forward to a busy week ahead. Not because its Josh's long week to work, or because I have classes-but because I will choose to live for me, and choose to be happy. I will make extra time with Levi, teaching him and working on that core haha. (He is still needing to strengthen it, you would think walking around with the Buddah Belly would do the trick ;)) I will choose to read passages in my Bible a few mornings this week. And I will get my butt running. I will stress less and pray more. I will eat better than worse. I will have a date night with my Husband. And I will keep practicing my camera.

XO Have a good week lovelies.